Forgiveness

Forgiveness never came easy from me. That didn't used to bother me, but the older I get the more I'd like that to change. Oh, sure... at times I will act as though I turned the other cheek. More times than not, however, it's a lie. I guess I started doing it as a "fake it 'till ya make it" manuever... but at the end of the day it's a lie. It probably has more to do with how I'd like to be perceived than what is actually in my heart. BUT... forgiveness does make me happy. Have you ever truly forgiven someone and then just felt that burden lift from your heart like a 90 ton weight? It's freeing. It really is. Being forgiven makes me happy as well... though I won't pretend for a minute that I am any better at forgiving myself than I am others. And still... it's a wonderful gift. Hopefully you can forgive ME for my absence... again! LOL